Now what? I’ve honestly never faced these feelings before, how do I overcome? Why must life be so complicated?  There is never a calm to the waters anymore. It’s like life took on ten thousand miles of raging waters. I need this river to calm for a minute.

I definitely feel the pressure from every angle. Why? Why won’t it end? How can I make it stop? The boat I was on, tossed me overboard and the life preserver I am wearing is beginning to thread and it is no longer keeping me afloat. This struggle is so very real. Up ahead there is another rapid, I see it coming the raging waters swirling around me. I ask myself if I am ready, do I have enough fight left to make it through? My legs are bruised and slashed from the rapids before. My arms are so weak from treading. I’m afraid, afraid I will be dragged under in the swirling current and not have the strength to surface. It is there , I am almost to it, I feel the waters beginning to move quicker, I am being hurled toward the rapids whether I am prepared or not. I hope this won’t be the rapid that tears my preserver to shreds. I hope there is a calm just past this rapid.  I just need a moment to catch my breath, heal my wounds, and prepare myself for the next rapid amongst these raging waters of life.